I know I am long overdue for a blog post. So much has changed over the last few months, so to keep you up to date, this will be a general overview of what’s been going on, and then I will write more detailed posts with the many intricacies in the weeks to come.
Word for the Year
How appropriate, that my “word” for this year was—NEW. God started planting that word in my heart since last year with this scripture:
“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.”
Journey in the Wilderness
If you’ve been following my journey, you know that I have been in the wilderness the last 2.5 years. I was laid off my from job and took a temporary job working retail. What I thought would last 3-4 months lasted almost 2.5 years! At the same time, my husband and I were trying to get pregnant, but to no avail.
But last year, God kept putting this verse on my heart, “See….I am doing a new thing!” I would say to God, “See? I don’t see it, Lord.” Then he would say, “Do you not perceive it?!” Over and over, I prayed, “Lord, help me to see what you are doing. Help me perceive where you are at work.” God kept on reassuring me, “I am making a way in the wilderness.” Where I saw a dead-end job and the impossibility of infertility, God said, “I am making a way,” and “I am making a stream.”
Think about it, what does it mean for there to be a stream in a wasteland? Or, the English Standard Version says, “a river in the dessert.” It doesn’t say it’s already there, God is saying, he is making it.
During those hard times, I had to cling to this verse and trust in his promises. Then, 2019 rolled around and I started a new job, had a baby, started looking for a new church, and took a break from school – all very new things for me!
God Can Work In an Instant
It’s crazy how much has changed in just a matter of months. When I was in the wilderness, I thought I would never leave it. I thought I would never work again. I would never get pregnant. But then, suddenly I was pregnant! Out of nowhere, I got a job! My husband and I were comfortable in our small local church where we have been members for five years. Without warning, the pastor announced he was going to retire! I had a baby and had no idea how my life would be turned upside down! I got my first F, and just like that, I’m taking a break from school! What seemed like forever changed in mere moments, because when it’s God’s time, he can and will do as he pleases.
In the next few posts, I’ll go through all the major life events in more detail, but for now, I just wanted to remind you… We are only in the middle of our story, which is in the middle of His big story. We really are just a breath, here today and gone tomorrow. When things are tough, it feels like it will last forever, but that’s not the case. God uses that time to accomplish his purposes. When it is time, he makes all things new.
If you’re reading this, leave a comment and say hi! I’d love to know where you’re at in life and how I can be praying for you!